courage
The sun can be shining
shining so bright
yet inside my heart is dark and dying
and I’m crying all the time, but you can’t see
The words you say to me
hurt me immensely
but how can I reply to you
when you don’t comprehend
The thoughts that race through my head
I have no control over them
I obsess and obsess over and over again
and nothing I do can quiet them
I have a difficult time
explaining to you the voices
the voices I hear, are not my fault
neither is the depression that accompanies them
All I can do is look for the courage
to fight and attempt to silence them
It takes power and plenty of it
to withstand the depression and have the desire to live
SEG
*Most of the poetry posted on my website was written during my teens and twenties. There are a few exceptions but typically I find myself wanting to journal regularly and write poetry if inspired. Poetry has been my therapist during many trying times. I have decided to post these poems because it reflects my history with suicidal depression and the struggles I encountered trying to cope with life and depression.