baggage

February 20 2017

lost

susangayhart Poetry alone, anger, baggage, communication, death, depressed, friendships, grief, insight, issues, longing, lost, relationship, suicide prevention, suidical depression, symptoms, tears, treatment resistant depression, trust

The anger that’s inside me
oh, how the anger within me is on fire
I often wonder if I’ll ever find
the water to diminish it

The relationship between us
It just not right
the tension, oh the awful tension
sends flames straight to the sky

I’m lost, so lost as to what to do
what is there to do?
our communication is extinct
and there are many words left unspoken

I feel such fear, too much fear
that all I can do is brush away the tears
If the air is not cleared soon
what will happen to us?

Will the trust ever be restored
or should I head for the door
luggage in both hands
with no future plans, except maybe death?
SEG

*Most of the poetry posted on my website was written during my teens and twenties. There are a few exceptions but typically I find myself wanting to journal regularly and write poetry if inspired. Poetry has been my therapist during many trying times. I have decided to post these poems because it reflects my history with suicidal depression and the struggles I encountered trying to cope with life and depression.