I see you in everything
I see your face
I hear your laughter
While I look in the mirror
I see your warm, unforgettable
Smile
Others don’t see it
But they don’t have to
For me to know you’re
There
I remember the words
And the words
Unspoken
I think of the things –
Things I have said
Words I wish I’d said
And the language I hoped
I would never say.
Everywhere I go
You are inside me
You make me feel alive
And dead
All at the same time
Often I think of you
And I wonder to myself
Are you a fantasy
A dream
To unreal to believe in?
But yet I do
I believe in you
I know you exist
No one has to see you
Hear you
or
even touch you
For me
You are everything
And nothing at all.

SEG

*2/6/92

1:30am

*Most of the poetry posted on my website was written during my teens and twenties. There are a few exceptions but typically I find myself wanting to journal regularly and write poetry if inspired. Poetry has been my therapist during many trying times. I have decided to post these poems because it reflects my history with suicidal depression and the struggles I encountered trying to cope with life and depression.